I am going to take a break from this page and my blog. It might only last a few days or it might be a few weeks. I’m going to continue interacting for the next 24 hours and then I’ll remove the apps from my phone so I’m not tempted. I need a break from the technology, the distraction, the constant pulling me away from my life and my feelings. I’m okay, I feel strong and clear headed but I’m also holding a lot of pain missing Anna more than ever. I’m going to have a session with Linda this week to help me unpack some things that have come up this week.
Before I go I want you to know… I’ve received many messages since my last post from people telling me that my page helps them make sense of themselves and they’ll miss me. They’ve said that what I write helps them feel less alone. I want you to know that you are not alone in your experiences. I’ve had the privilege of receiving hundreds of messages over the past year from people sharing their experiences and struggles and therapy journeys and I can tell you, WE ARE ALL THE SAME. Deep down, we all want to be seen and heard and loved for who we are. We’re all carrying deep pain and a longing for connection. I want you to know that however you are feeling makes total sense. Your coping strategies and defences make total sense. If I could give one piece of advice to those of you struggling with various things in therapy, I would encourage you to say that exact thing to your therapist. Tell them what’s not working. Tell them how you feel. Write it down, whisper it if you need to. Text it to them while they’re sat in front of you. Try any way to communicate your thoughts and needs… your therapist should meet this honest authenticity with total respect, safety, attunement and care. Anna has always gently encouraged me to share every thought and feeling and I believe that is the key to the progress I’ve made.
If you look at the pages I follow you’ll find some incredible therapy related accounts that you may not already be aware of. I really enjoy the connections I’ve made on here and the genuine friendships fostered. I really care about you all.
I’ll be around until this time tomorrow. 💙🌱🌸🌿🐼