The quieter you become, the more you are able to hear. RUMI.
Hello š itās been almost 5 weeksā¦ Iām popping on to reconnect and give an update but Iāll be taking another break shortly.
The time away from social media has been exactly what I needed. I have focused my attention on myself and my family. I felt a compulsion to mute the busy distractions of the online world and noticed a number of different responses inside when I did this. The initial reaction was discomfort and agitationā¦ I was confronted with my life – raw and unfiltered. I found myself repeatedly looking for the apps in the early days. That impulse has eased recently and now I find myself more comfortable with the silences. The gaps where I am not entertained, busy, distracted, numbing. I feel more connected and awakeā¦ but I am also more aware of the dark corners. I am finding myself in these spaces and that brings up a whole host of different aspects of my self and my life that need attention.
My therapy has been intense. I am beginning to explore some core wounds that I never even uncovered with Anna. I am in the thick of attachment work. All of my parts are forming a deep connection with Mark and the transference is proving to be a fertile ground for our work. It feels delicate and intimate and very healing and deserving of space and patience and time.
I hope the start of this new year has been kind to all who have read this and that it continues to bring hope and light š
Finding Lucy King 
So good to hear youāre doing well and that it was absolutely the right decision for you and your family.
Doesnāt mean youāre not missed though! Especially as youāre going through some transference stuff, but I totally get that you said itās personal and intimate, so I understand and am so glad for you youāre in such a good place.
What a fabulously start to the year! And long may it continue for you š¤
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Thanks LS. Iāve missed hearing how you and the other bloggers have been but Iāve needed to really slow everything down. Youāve been in my mind frequently though.
Yeah the transference stuff is intense and Iām so glad Iām working with an expert that knows what heās doing unlike Linda š Iām realising more and more that she just didnāt know how to deal with my stuff… but Marks handling it beautifully. And Iāve really thrown a lot at him! Sending love to you š
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I bet you have! And I bet he has too. I can well imagine how the two of you are so good at working through it all, whatever it is.
Iām glad weāve been in your mind because you are in ours too, or at least, I speak for myself. And I think of Amber too, who is sounding in a very similar position to you. You both may not be around like you used to but youāre certainly not forgotten.
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Yes Iāve thought of you often LS! Thank you for your kind words š
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š¤ thank you for your kind words too!
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Sending love L. I was literally thinking about emailing you today to see how you were. Glad that a step away from social media has helped. Thinking of you x
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Aw Iād love to hear from you RB, any time! Thank you! Itās def been what j needed and I think Iām gonna head off again. I just donāt have the capacity right now for anything more than a very simple life. No idea what itās about but slowing down and limiting stimulation seems to help š
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Hi Lucy! I have looked for you every day. My therapist mentioned you just the other day… the connection I had found with you in your blog. I told her that you have been gone for a break and I wasn’t sure whether you would be back and that I understand whatever your decision is. I told her that you found a great therapist and are doing intense work… and that I am happy for you even though I miss you. It is good to know you are doing well… which translates into: I am glad your connection with Mark is strong and therapy is going well for you. You were missed!
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Aw Blue, so so touching that you guys talked of me. You know Iād welcome an email from you any time you want a catch up! I missed hearing from you too! š
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Thinking of you! I was wondering when we’d see you again. I’m so glad you’re getting what you need from this break and I hope it continues to go well.
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Thank you Ease, I really appreciate your kind words. Hope
You are doing okay! š
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I’ve missed you Lucy. I am glad you got the r’n’r that you needed. I was also thinking of emailing to see how you were but wanted to give you your space. The sessions with Mark are poles apart with the sessions with Linda aren’t they!
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Aw Claire, thank you! Absolutely like night and day – the difference between Mark and Linda… tempted to send Linda the recordings of the sessions so she can hear what real in depth therapy sounds like! lol
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